Apr 13, 2015

It's been a bit. I don't know what else to say. It's been a wild ride. Lots has happened and I don't know how to process it all. Things have been changing and I have no way of stopping or slowing it down. I'm in a whirlwind and I don't know when I'll be back safely.

I am safe, but mentally I'm gone. I don't know how else to explain it.

I read a few articles and friends' postings...well not really friends, just people I know. I read about their lives and how horrible things have gotten for them. All I can say is that I saw that all coming from how they treated me and the people who were trying to help them the first time around.

It's hilarious that they would act like Reno doesn't "work" for them. Reno spits you out if you don't manage yourself correctly. That's all I know about this town. Bigger towns do it worse, but you are given many different chances to correct yourself in this town. There are so many opportunities, you just need to know where to go and who to talk with.

Anyways... I'm doing alright. I don't really have much else to say for those out there reading this from time to time. I'm surviving and things aren't the best, but I am happy with what's happened so far.

I just don't like how time moves so fast that I can't keep up.

Dec 2, 2014

Howdy, I'm back...

I'm back for the moment, and there are a lot of things I want to write about.. but let's just start with one thing at a time.

I've been wondering what I would tell younger people should I not make it to see them grow up.
Have you ever wondered about that? It isn't something I would think about normally as a younger man, but since I've lived life a bit and seen things, I would like to at least help out the younger people.

The biggest thing I would like the younger ones to know is to always be strong no matter what, and to never give up on their lives. There is just far too much out there to experience, you will never be able to do it all, but it is quite an awesome ride, no matter what kind of ride it is.

There are so many things, maybe I'll work on a video or two to keep things fresh, as I need to work on my video skills anyway.

Anyway, I'm back for the moment.

May 29, 2014

Update!~

Oh nice.. it's been awhile, where have I been?

Lots has happened, but nothing I would like to express on here at the moment.
just know I have some issues I'm hammering out right now, and hopefully I'll be back to my normal happy self soon!.

Jan 20, 2012


They say college is about learning how to deal with the system. Sure, that may be true, but I still hate it. I'm not going to be your friend, I find your judging methods to be totally biased and rather than being based on talent it's based on a skewed ideology of showing up and playing a facade everyone knows is there. You don't even take the time to see if I am joking about my own work, like I would be incapable of such high level thinking and rather just take the "easy" path.

It sickens me to no end, and rather than encourage individuality, it crushes it in an attempt to mold and fit people into a form that is horrible for creating innovation and growth in exchange for someone who is "hirable" and able to fit into a machine with no mind of their own.

How could you possibly expect me to put work out there that I seriously care about or show when I have to put someone else's name on it who I have little to no respect for academically?

The work I've put up in school thus far at school has been a total farce and everything I wrote about it was a joke in which I played a part of; not anymore. I cannot allow myself to be a part of that in which I cannot respect the people they force me to call my peers. My peers challenge me just as much as I challenge them. So far, I've found maybe 2 or three who do that. Not worth the effort. The feedback I got was the same stuff I already knew and had planned, that was a part of my work; designed to have people fall into those traps- it was a joke.

I may be there, but just so you know, I am not going to try to help you be better anymore unless there is a direct benefit for me. Why should I take my time to help you if I don't get anything out of it? I've given away far too much of my time there and have nothing to show for it.

It just sickens me knowing that it will fall on deaf ears because no one cares there. They say they do, but have become robots just like everyone else.

Jan 12, 2012

Reason why I haven't taken jobs in art

I don't like taking jobs in art.

The main reason is that I feel that I lose a bit of my work when I work like that. It feels as if I am underselling my talents and skills. Not what I want to do.

So, instead, I will be making my own way out there- I know how to do it and I probably should be doing already, it's just a lot of legwork, but it will be much more worth it in the end. I just wanted to write this down because there is a lot of thoughts going in my head, and the more I make tangible, the more I will be able to handle all of these thoughts.

However, I have been keeping my eye out on possibilites available to me....

Dec 29, 2011

I do a lot of varied things

I never really quite realized how much crap I do that is so different on a daily basis. I go all over the place and it doesn't seem like I do anything anymore. Take yesterday. I went to see my niece play basketball, photographed, took her all over reno, saw my friend Fiona, then came home. Before the Bball, I woke up with not much sleep, took my mother, niece and nephew up to reno about 3 hours before my nieces game, then took my mom shopping while I took a quick nap.

That was just yesterday out of a very busy week. I hope my life is never boring. I couldn't handle the lack of stuff to do.

It also shows why I am so sporadic when it comes to photo projects. There are deeper underlying ideas and themes that aren't so apparent on the surface and sadly most people will never see, but I am happy with that. If you aren't going to take the time to understand my work, I don't have the time to try to convince you.

More and more, I'm working on these different things inside of my world.

Side note: my daily photo blog is almost at a week, which means that it is something I have been wanting to do for some time. I have been in a photo block for quite some time, and I never feel like I have pushed myself... I'm also working inside of video and that makes things a lot of fun!

Until next time, I'll be running around doing all kinds of different things.

Such a change from last year... I'm amazing.